I do not belive in love at first sight. Never.

Of course, attractions does happen at fist contact. Cause without attraction you’d not feel interested enough to venture into something totally different. But in my case, it was not totally different, it was more like, something so very simillar.

To deny our impulses, is to deny the very thing that makes us human.

It has happened. Never thought it would happen to me *again*. But it has.

Hoplessly in love. Knowing how hopeless it is.

Still, there are no definitions to describe the relation. Or may be, there is no relation.

Who knows, Who cares about materialistic namings of any relations anyway?

Its just a feeling, I just cant brush it off me!! The strange feeling of sadness, that comes with the thrill of the happiness. Its there. Been there since the late evening of Sunday.

Somehow know, its not a temporary surge of emotions. Its like something has changed,
something so minimal, yet very important part.

I cant deny it. After all this long hours of talking and connecting, even while not being with the other.

One more factor that helps stabilize my life, has imerged. The factor which can also derange the stability if he chooses to. But may be its the risk that we all willingly choose to take.

But at the end of the day…. Life is still the same…

…and the search to the holy grail continues…

Ektz.