9:03:00 PM | Tuesday, September 27, 2005

Death does this to me…. Even if its just a death of my HDD.

I’ve lost all of my data as in writings, pictures, memories, instant conversations, all.

And i’d never be able revive them back again!

Please do not sympathize.

And dont expect me to post often, atleast for a few days, weeks.

Suffering is inevitable, anyways.

Sighs.

Humor is something inherent in our lives, but one need to have the eye for it. And its not the most happy ones that finds humor in everything, they are the most pained souls who could actually end up appreciating the humor in small things around. Again, its not that i’m one of them though! I still think I have a lot more remaining to experience. And also I kinda like being in angst. Not cause its a cool thing to do. Just cause, like desire and anger, it drives me to do things I wouldnt do otherwise. But well, thats a different matter of talk altogether.

The matter of this post is, Humor. In small things. Such as one hereditary decease in our family, of subconscious deafness. Oh, let me explain, Everyone of us can hear fine, until the time one is involved in doing something which requires a tad bit of concentration. Then there is a series of funny mishears of similarly pronounced words and phrases.

Like… my dad mishears “Suniel shettty” [a bollywood actor] for “surya Shakti” [solar power!] And gets quite amused that my mom is asking him to buy a Suniel Shrtty Cooker!!

Like … my sister mishears “Dining table” instead of “Line-in cable” And wonders why I need a dining table to listen to my favorite songs!!

Like… my mom mishears “Hotel” for a “Bottle” and is shocked that I want one!

Like… I mishear “Ceiling” For the word “Feeling”… and a line of my particular favorite love song, “… and I cant seem to get away this feeling.. “… turns into a weird scene.. as I start imagining the band has somehow stuck to the ceiling!

Thats all for now guys! made a lot of fun out of my family for the day! Well, there is a lot more remaining here for this list, but hey, you gotta wait for the best things in life!

Ektz.

Okay. I was tagged. This time the Tag is interesting enough though. Thanks Nithyananda For this one! Its a 55 words story tag! here it goes..

Story : Shattered!

“.. I’ve decided on death. Dont ask why!”

She sighed looking at the shattered glass on floor.

Let me introduce all to someone new in my life…

…. The one who is mostly clad in red n black. And sometimes, in just black. The one color which looks great on him.

…. The one who sings well, and makes my heart go ohh-la-la when he sings out loud when i want to, not caring about anyone around.

…. The one who makes me tingle in all the right places when he is active.

…. The one who is going to be my constant companion, in misery and fun, in good and bad, for as long as we shall both live.

… The one …. I’d always wanted, since the day i saw him first.

Stories apart, finally, I’ve found what I’d always wanted.

Oh no, its not about the ‘Holy Grail’ i’m talking. That search has never came to an end, rather it has just begun more profoundly than ever before. This thing I’ve found is not even remotely conntected to Holy Grail. Its more like… telephonically connected!! Grins.

Oh yeah, I’ve given myself a new luxury that i was planning to get from a long time, but everytime postponed due to one or other reason. A Good Mobile Handset. I mean, its true, about cell phones, that you wait a little longer and you get a better piece. But then it may just continue like forever, and i may never get to have any!!

But now I have it! THE ONE handset I always wanted. Nokia 7250. Loved it since the day its first ad aired on TV Channel. I was shocked when i heard that company stopped producing this cell, for some reason! That meant, i coulnt ever gonna get another Brand new 7250. But now i am so happy, and satisfied, to have found this piece.

My cool dude in red n black cover!

I’m actually very happy!

Ektz.

I do not belive in love at first sight. Never.

Of course, attractions does happen at fist contact. Cause without attraction you’d not feel interested enough to venture into something totally different. But in my case, it was not totally different, it was more like, something so very simillar.

To deny our impulses, is to deny the very thing that makes us human.

It has happened. Never thought it would happen to me *again*. But it has.

Hoplessly in love. Knowing how hopeless it is.

Still, there are no definitions to describe the relation. Or may be, there is no relation.

Who knows, Who cares about materialistic namings of any relations anyway?

Its just a feeling, I just cant brush it off me!! The strange feeling of sadness, that comes with the thrill of the happiness. Its there. Been there since the late evening of Sunday.

Somehow know, its not a temporary surge of emotions. Its like something has changed,
something so minimal, yet very important part.

I cant deny it. After all this long hours of talking and connecting, even while not being with the other.

One more factor that helps stabilize my life, has imerged. The factor which can also derange the stability if he chooses to. But may be its the risk that we all willingly choose to take.

But at the end of the day…. Life is still the same…

…and the search to the holy grail continues…

Ektz.

“Rain”, he spoke to me in a sudden joyful yell, “It’s going to rain now!”

It’s been long since anyone of us has said anything while walking. The late evening was moist, I could breathe it in and fill my senses with its warmth. It was so familiar, being there with him, walking on that road. Its the confort zone, for both of us. A comfort zone we hadn’t shared since long.

And he had said those words, breaking the silence.

I gazed in his direction. I could see the pleasure that has spread across his ragged yet chaildlike features. The delight of the ‘Rain’ was causing him to forget everything for a moment, and look up at sky.

I looked up, along with him. The clouds weren’t that remarkable, but the delicate scent of soaked earth was already thinning out deeply in the environs.

… and it suddenly started raining cats and dogs. I turned to look for a shelter, yet he kept holding my hand, not letting me move an inch. we were throughly drenched in less than a minute. Those days rain was like him too, abruptly changing moods.

He had clenched his eyes shut, and his face was heavernwards, as he held my hand tight, like a child. I looked at him, and pulled him close. He was shivering, cold and drenched. I embraced him, he held onto me. I swear I could see there were tears, along with the droplets of water running down his cheeks.

A moment later, he pulled him self away, still shivering. He gazed once more at the sky, shouting, ” I am free.”

I was proud. He was a brave child. He turned, and looked at me, with his million dollar heart-melting smile. He whispered to me, ” I’m free.”

I smiled back, not saying anything, nudging him to wallk. we walked. In rain. In silence. In solitude of each other’s presence.

We finally reach home, thankfully safe. As it has been raining now for hours. He is sleeping infront of my eyes, on the sofa, covered in a blanket, with a smile on his face. probably a good dream in which his world is perfect, flawless.

But I cant rest, knowing what an emotional soul like him, is going through. So far, in my life, he’s been the gentlest, most passionate guy I’ve ever met. And he is almost everything one girl normally looks for, in a guy.

I still can’t forget our long talk before it rained. His last words are still ringing into my ears like pounding hammers, not letting me think straight on any other topic than destruction of that person who caused him such pain. He had said, “… after all what I did for her… she left me… because… I wasnt good enough…”

World is a strange place!

well, I think morpheus is happy that I’m off cable!

Besides, who can not love 1000 channels at home, to browse through.

But, there are bad sides too. My PiP [picture in picture] effect in TV is useless. I cant see Channels of Star or Sony group yet. And also 50% of the channels are in funny languages that I do not understand! then again, i dont even understand Ekta Kapoor’s Rona Dhona Daily sops.

so all in all, Its a great deal cause 30% of channels are Die-hard music ones. And one of my favorites is The Musik.

Ektz