Latest Law for a long term Romance: If you see a guy who’s sensible and strong, Witty and elegant, Sweet and immersely emotional… DO NOT FALL for him, I repeat DO NOT !!! Cause from the latest i’ve realized, all the Great Guys are Either Married.. or Gay!!

Oh, the hell with it! Just an opinianated freak of a friend, who has written that to me in a mail after she has come back from the movie PAGE3. I mean, there’s nothing wrong with being Gay, but that sentence certainly is unbelievable! I mean how can be half of the good guys on earth have turned gay!!
But after tonight, i can say, there is something weirdly true about it. Its actaully morning right now, and i’ve almost spent the whole night, sitting by the window, lost in thought, wathching aimless at clear dark sky with sparkling stars [ its good thing about small towns.. not much of pollution, you can add ten more years to your lifetime by living here .. ]

The recent [ a month old!!] Accident has gotten me into bedrest for a few months [ hopefully only weeks are remaining now..] and i’m just waiting for the time that i start learning to walk again. Ah, so great would be a day when i would learn to make a first step. [ .. my sister would be waiting for that with a camcorder for a home video.. ] But till the day arrives, i’m stuck. Yep, i’ve got great friends, who occasionally [almost everynight!] barges into my house/my room and celebrates!! [as if the cause of the celeb is that i cant walk!! Arrgh!] And i’ve actually got a cute bunch of friends. From them, i’ve my own set of close friends, First is Mann, who is like a flirtious kid in his last teen, his intelligence defies his age though. And the other close friend of mine is Chintu, who is one yr elder than me, and still lives in his early teens. His looks defies his mental age. [ Dont tell him though, he’ll be teasing me like hell in this condition where i cant beat him off me..] And then i’ve Mr. CU… the guy i like a lot of this group. Of course when i met him first, i used a very well chewed pick up line to get himm but then we eventually became good friends [ dont ask me which one was that!! i would hate to see anyone faint after reading that!!] I call him CU as he is like the Control Unit of the whole ‘Gang’. When everyone is in their BACHCHA MOOD he only can handle to keep a calm over all of us. Now the weird part was that, after that pick up line thingi, he never rose up to any occation to ask me out [trust me, i created almost 100% of them.. to get him to ask me out] But nonetheless i never whined about it or made a move, probably cause i loved the chase, like our Friend Reshmasays… see who blinks first.

And i guess i blinked tonight, more out of distraction than desire. After the chilled valentine, i needed to let the ‘chill’ out. It was getting corrosive, i thought i could use a talk with someone who can understand what i’m trying to say. And he was the perfect candidate, he has always been there to listen without being judgemental. It was after everyone left that i decided to talk it out. He was still there mending the mess the gang created in my room. I was watching him clear things from my studytable, clean my computer keyboard with hair dryer [ dont ask me how it got stained in first place if you dont want to hear lies!!] And i bursted it out, ” Why havent you asked me out yet…”

He shocked and turned, said “.. wh.. ell…” which actually sounded like a cut-in-middle of “what” and “Hell..” to me. I kept on, ” I know you remember, i was the one to ask you out first, but you never responded well to me… Tell me something… why??”

He looked away for a moment, probably thinking how to come up with the answer that would not cause hurt or resentment. It raged me, he was ‘actually’ thinking of excusese… I flamed out, ” You dont like me or somthing, or you are like seeing someone else that you have decided to keep a top secret! ” [Gawd, i was so sarcastic with that comment where actually i knew, he was like spending so much of time looking after me. It was the precise reason why i was frustrated, i couldnt understand why he stayed away even after. ]

He tried to stabber a reply, ” No, i’m not seeing anyone else, but to think of this, i think i’ve never seen you in that light.. ” OMG! Now that was a reply i wasnt expecting, it would have been better to hear that he was seeing someone more interesting, than seeing nothing interesting in me any more.

It was hammered Ego that spoke, “Why, if you find me so repulsive..”

He cut me short, ” its not like that Ekta….”

“.. Then tell me what its like…” [ me.. fuming with rage]

“.. Its like… i dont get involve with girls…” [ he’s so embarassed, his face is flushed pink]

“.. because?? ” [ expecting a smartass reason like carrer, family issues, etc etc. But being a dumbass myself i cant see the clear hint he gave ]

“.. because… [long pause] …. [long silence from my side]…. i’m gay ” [ phew! out there.. Finally! And my mouth is half open, and words are not coming out]

he looks at me, a little tensed up, also with a pinch of disdain, probably cause he thinks I’m too shocked, may be he thinks i’m going to hold contempt against him cause he is gay. After all, at last he has picked up on normal reaction towards gay people in our society. But what he doesnt know is, THAT apparant shock is not only cause he kept it a secret from me, but also cause suddenly that sentense has flashed in front of my eyes…

Fortunately i come to my senses rather well this time, I manage to come up with a smile, ” you should have told me, then this misunderstanding would have never happened.. ”

He relaxes, seeing that i’ve taken it good. ” I didnt want you to know..”

“No problem, I understand. Your secret is safe with me!” [ there.. i said those words again that i hated to utter, “I UNDERSTAND”… hell i dont! i’m just saying that i do, cause thats what i’m supposed to! ]

He leaves then, after some more silence, and he has almost cleaned up my whole room. And so thats the end of this. The chase has came to an end, finally! I’m sorry it hasnt lead to anything so very dramatic for people to enjoy who read this blog. But after all, its life, not a fucking movie for heaven’s sake! [ excuse my cursing, just not in a mind of frame to be nice .. ]