I asked Joy:
Why it happens that the relationship you had with someone that felt so superb, so deep, and so intense, just turns into a piece of shit that you cant carry along anymore??
He replied:
Thats life, sweetheart! Maturity is to learn to live with things that we can’t change!
After an hour’s worth of blah blah blah… about how i am afraid to loose the feeling that i’m in love with Ember, where in reality that relationship is fading away slowly. I can feel it, leaving me. I can feel it, diminishing. And i cant help but mourn. He is supposed to be the ONE!! After Three thousand Dates, he was the one i connected so deeply to. Its been Three years after that, and i’ve never loved anyone else like i loved him. [ Joy comes into total different column under the topic love, so no comparison there! ]
Its not like we’re breaking up, we are just moving away from each other. We still talk to each other, no contempt held against. But something’s missing. The passion that was there before. Anyway this LDR [long distance relationship] is being Royal pain in Ass! And to think of it, I had decided that LDR is particularly the thing i wouldnt get into, when i was 16. I had made a list of things that i would never do, such as, i would never go for LDR, never date a workoholic, and never take first dates to my bed! Funnily, they keep happening again and again with me!!
I just jumped from one topic to another, let me just go back onto the original one. At times when i am not so cynical, i feel like i should just let things pass on, let time pass, may be this is just the phaze i’m going through… that we are going through! But i’m not at all sure! Anyways, Thats all to it now i guess! Cant just keep worrying about it all the time.
Late Goodnight!
*Beams my self up, to Enterprize *
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