This is a Chat Transcript of me and an Admirer of mine, KWH . He’s been in my net life since year 2001. And he cares for me so much, that at times I feel bad for not loving him the way he loves me. But anyways, whenever he talks to me, he makes my day!

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KWH ( 4:31:00 PM): Heyyy.. What are you doing online??
Me (4:31:51 PM): Searching for GAY PORN!! LOL. actually updation of site, what else I can do online?
KWH (4:32:02 PM): do me, do me! lol
Me (4:32:27 PM): nice offer. But thanks; I’ll pass on that
KWH (4:32:53 PM): nahinnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn, main itna bhi bura to nahin
Me (4:33:27 PM): you’re not at all bad, thats why am passing on that
KWH (4:34:19 PM): ohh i can be bad also
Me (4:34:53 PM): laughs. the bad thing is, if you be good, i’ll feel bad doing you
in this mind frame. And if u be bad, I’ll get pissed off and ignore you:P
KWH (4:35:43 PM): sighs, so anything i do, i am gonna be unworthy
Me (4:36:08 PM): told ya, its just me
KWH (4:36:18 PM): sighs seems like i am the unlucky one
KWH (4:36:24 PM): lol now i am in sad mood
KWH (4:36:31 PM): nah re … it is not u
KWH (4:38:01 PM): what have u got planned for urself after u recover
Me (4:38:30 PM): am not thinking of that at all
KWH (4:39:45 PM): oh why not
Me (4:40:07 PM): i dnt know
KWH (4:40:28 PM): can i ask u something ekta
Me (4:40:36 PM): sure
KWH (4:40:52 PM): what is it that is troubling u
KWH (4:42:00 PM): i am sorry if i am asking something personal
KWH (4:42:04 PM): but just that i worry for u
KWH (4:42:11 PM): and i know something is bothering
Me (4:42:29 PM): smiles.
Me (4:42:37 PM): there are many things to be sorted out, but the inability to move
around isnt lettting me do it.
Me (4:43:24 PM): with regard to work, life and all the stuff. and this bed rest is
somehow gettng to my nerves, that all!
KWH (4:44:09 PM): i can understand, when someone is used to working and being busy , not being able to move around well it is frustrating
KWH (4:44:26 PM): but just think of it this way, this period of bed rest is almost
over
Me (4:44:27 PM): its more than frustruating for me
KWH (4:44:31 PM): just a couple more weeks
KWH (4:45:11 PM): well take it out on me , lol believe me i would be more then
happy to be ur punching bag if it makes u feel better
Me (4:46:17 PM): i cant always just let anyone be punching bag for my pent up
emotions
Me (4:46:37 PM): its soemthing which is mine, and somhow i dnt agree with this.
it’ll be unresponsible on my part to do so!
KWH (4:46:52 PM): i know u cant but atleast sometimes, otherwise just give me a
missed call when u r low, i will call u and definetly entertain u and make u
laugh
KWH (4:47:13 PM): smiles u are really very sensible u know that
Me (4:47:30 PM): well, its a curse, at times i wish i could just be a fucking
coldhearted bitch
KWH (4:47:58 PM): well u cannot be something u are not
KWH (4:48:08 PM): and i know u cannot fake nything
Me (4:48:43 PM): thats a curse again
KWH (4:48:52 PM): nah re
KWH (4:49:12 PM): i cannot fake nything and well honestly i am happy being like
that, I hate fakes
Me (4:49:46 PM): well, that is not good at times, u become vulnerable to things
Me (4:50:00 PM): but anyways i would rahter take the risk of being vulnerable than
to be a fake
KWH (4:50:17 PM): exactly, how i feel
KWH (4:50:26 PM): wow we really do think alike
KWH (4:51:02 PM): see i have been hurt by people too, so i know what u r talking
about, but well learning from mistakes, growing and not repeating same mistakes, that is what one should do. we have brains, must use it
Me (4:51:48 PM): true
KWH (4:53:06 PM): what i am trying to tell u is from what i have seen, in life the
good times and happy times are less and stressful times and well difficult times are more so one must be receptive to the bad times cause that is what constitutes of majority of our life
Me (4:55:09 PM): well its nice to read, but actually hard to do
KWH (4:56:25 PM): i know but well when u have friends with u, who like u and well
are there for u, u should take their help and make it easier
KWH (4:56:29 PM): believe me talking helps
Me (4:57:03 PM): i think i am too egoistic to talk to people
KWH (4:59:19 PM): well dont be like this
KWH (4:59:32 PM): dont talk to everyone
KWH (4:59:41 PM): atleast be open to people who well worry for u
Me (5:00:04 PM): its nice gesture on ur part
KWH (5:00:31 PM): hey Ekta, u know how i feel for u
KWH (5:00:40 PM): it is not a gesture for the heck of it
KWH (5:00:42 PM): i do mean it, believe me i dont know if u know me but i am not the kinds to be like this every anyone and everyone
Me (5:01:32 PM): cool down! i was just appreciating
KWH (5:01:41 PM): lol, i know
KWH (5:01:56 PM): i was just telling u, cause i know sometimes u feel people are
flattering u
KWH (5:02:13 PM): and well are saying things or doing things expecting something in return
Me (5:02:21 PM): most of the times, they are. But i know u arent one of them
KWH (5:02:21 PM): i know, i have seen the people behave around u
KWH (5:02:37 PM): smiles well thank u for understanding me
KWH (5:03:15 PM): lol to lighten things up
KWH (5:03:24 PM): how are things on the romance part of ur life
KWH (5:03:28 PM): met any new targets :P?

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